Looking back over nearly three decades, I can't help but notice how much I have changed, constantly taking all this long time highly potent (and not so potent) chemicals, which Psychiatrists temptingly call medication.

Beautiful and Romantic feelings, the rapture of the soul, emotions of admiration, feelings of immense happiness, with shifts to mental fears, feelings of nakedness and insecurity in the human world. That was in the beginning. Now almost all feelings have atrophied, emptiness inside, an neutral, slightly positive feeling of contentment and satiety. This is the result of 27 years of "treatment" with psychiatric chemicals. And this treatment according to all psychiatrists cannot be interrupted, it is a lifelong vocation to "get sick". Doctors simply do not want to lose the objects (patients) that provide the work for Psychiatrists. The more patients, the more work and the higher the nursing staff's salary.